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Lisa schwartz young6/30/2023 ![]() ![]() A tear rolled down her cheek and then one rolled down mine. We had only been dating for a few months, but the connection we had was so strong that we both knew it was going to last forever. The uncertainty that was usually always somewhere in her eyes disappeared. Me: “Well… I was thinking… I wanted to wait to have sex with the person I knew I was going to spend the rest of my life with… and I know I want to spend it with you.” I’m sure she will give you lots of insight into what goes on inside her head later. Even to this day she doesn’t realize how incredible she really is. I thought about how all the other girls in the room were probably looking at her with spite and how the guy with the six-pack sitting next to me was probably going to be making out with her on set later, after they both inevitably got the job because, why wouldn’t they? Now as I look back, I realize while I was thinking about how perfect she was, she was thinking about all the things she wished she could change about herself. As she stared at her script, I stared at her face and couldn’t stop thinking about how lucky she was to be so fucking beautiful. We were total strangers, sitting across from each other in a seedy audition room in the slums of Hollywood. The first time I saw Lisa was a few years prior, and I thought she was the prettiest girl I had ever seen in my entire nineteen years of life. It was something that would send me into a whirlwind of confusion because I didn’t understand how somebody so beautiful, so talented, so hilarious, and, most importantly, so good could be so hard on themselves. She was constantly battling voices inside her head that were screaming that she wasn’t good enough, pretty enough, thin enough, talented enough, or, most importantly, successful enough. ![]() I could pretend to love my creases too if I got residuals.”Īs Lisa rotated the thawed part of the Tito’s bottle away from her now purple vagina, I looked into her eyes and saw something she always seemed to have lingering in there: uncertainty. Lisa: “I wonder if they’ll bring back those Dove commercials where they have all the big ladies talk about how much they love their creases. ![]()
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